Bloggity Blog #4 - May 2021

Saturday 1st May 2021

And just like that – it’s the start of a new month!

April marked a whole month that I was actually able to work this year. Sure enough, I still have my crutch should I feel the need to use it and knee supports to wear for the rest of my life when I’m active – but all I can do is try to focus on the future and what I want those goals to be.

It’s frustrating at times when I realise there’s so much I want to be doing with myself and so many obstacles that make those dreams unachievable. First of all, I want to be able to support myself and my little family financially, using only my writing. It this realistic? No way! Only very few writers can confidently and competently do this. Is it OK for me to dream this big when I haven’t even had a full book published yet? It’s hard to say, because it’s both yes and no. We have to work hard to achieve our dreams and doing it while working full time, studying and looking after a house full of animals, is tough.

I’m in a bit of a reading slump at the moment too. I’ve been neglecting my weekly book reviews and while a big part of that is down to lack of time and tiredness after work, I recently read a godawful story that really zapped every ounce of creative energy out of me – if that’s even possible. It took well over a month to read this little kindle story and somehow, it made me hate looking at my kindle – let alone picking up the damn thing to read!

Mentally, I’ve been struggling recently, especially with going back to work and losing all of my free tine. I sleep after dinner; I don’t have time for the simple pleasures in life. Like gaming or fun. And happiness. At times, it’s made me question my career and if I really have the balls and tenacity to continue on with my study. It’s just over two years left until I’m a registered RVN (if I register, of course), and there’s still a helluva difficult journey ahead.

Anyway, I leave this entry with the hope that things will start feeling better for me soon and whoever you are, reader, you’re happy and safe.

Enjoy May

Holly x